沙与沫
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SAND AND FOAM(first part)

    *  *    sandandfoam(firstpart)

    iamforeverwalkingupontheseshores,

    betwixtthesandandthefoam,

    thehightidewillerasemyfoot-prints,

    andthewindwillblowawaythefoam.

    buttheseaandtheshorewillremain

    forever.

    onceifilledmyhandwithmist.

    theniopeneditandlo,themistwasaworm.

    andiclosedandopenedherewasabird.

    andagainiclosedandopenedmyhand,andinitshollowstoodamanwithasadface,turnedupward.

    andagainiclosedherewasnaughtbutmist.

    butiheardasongofexceedingsweetness.

    itwasbutyesterdayithoughtmyselfafragmentquiveringwithoutrhereoflife.

    nowiknowthere,andalllifeinrhythmicfragmentsmoveswithinme.

    theysaytomeintheirawakening,"youandtheworldyouliveinarebutagrainofsandupontheinfiniteshoreofaninfinitesea."

    andinmydreamisaytothem,"iamtheinfinitesea,andallworldsarebutgrainsofsanduponmyshore."

    onlyoncehaveibeenmademute.itwaswhenamanaskedme,"whoareyou?"

    thefirstthoughtofgodwasanangel.

    thefirstwordofgodwasaman.

    wewerefluttering,wandering,longingcreaturesathousandthousandyearsbeforetheseaandthewindintheforestgaveuswords.

    noofdaysinuswithonlythesoundsofouryesterdays?

    thesphinxspokeonlyonce,andthesphinxsaid,"agrainofsandisadesert,andadesertisagrainofsand;andnowletusallbesilentagain."

    iheardthesphinx,butididnotunderstand.

    longdidilieinthedustofegypt,silentandunawareoftheseasons.

    thenthesungavemebirth,andiroseandwalkeduponthebanksofthenile,

    singingwiththedaysanddreamingwiththenights.

    andnowthesunthreadsuponiofegypt.

    butbeholdamarvelandariddle!

    theverysunthatgatheredotscatterme.

    stillerectami,andsureoffootdoionthebanksofthenile.

    remembranceisaformofmeeting.

    forgetfulnessisaformoffreedom.

    weordingtothetlesssuns;andtheymeasuretitlepockets.

    nowtellme,howcouldweeverime?

    spaceisnotspacebetweentheearthandthesuntoonewholooksdownfromthewindowsofthemilkyway.

    humanityisariveroflightrunningfromtheex-eternitytoeternity.

    donotthespiritswhodwellintheetherenvymanhispain?

    onmywaytotheholycityimetanotherpilgrimandiaskedhihewaytotheholycity?"

    andhesaid,"followme,andyouwillreachtheholycityinadayandanight."

    andifollowedhim.andwewalkedmanydaysandheholycity.

    andwhatwastogrywithmebecausehehadmisledme.

    makeme,ohgod,thepreyofthelion,ereyoumaketherabbitmyprey.

    onehepathofthenight.

    myhousesaystome,"donotleaveme,forheredwellsyourpast."

    andtheroadsaystoeandfollowme,foriamyourfuture."

    andisaytobothmyhouseandtheroad,"ihavenopast,norhaveiafuture.ifistayhere,thereisagoinginmystaying;andifigothereisastayinginhwillchangeallthings."

    howcanilosefaithinthejusticeoflife,whenthedreahersarenotmorebeautifulthanthedreah?strange,thedesireforcertainpleasuresisapartofmypain.

    seventimeshaveidespisedmysoul:

    thefirsttishe.

    thesecondtihecrippled.

    thethirdtimewhenshewasgiventochoosebetweenthehardandtheeasy,andshechosetheeasy.

    thefourthtiittedawrong,andfortedherselfthatothersalsomitwrong.

    thefifthtimewhensheforboreforweakness,andattributedherpatiencetostrength.

    thesixthtimewhenshedespisedtheuglinessofaface,andknewnotthatitwasoneofherownmasks.

    andtheseventhtimewhenshesangasongofpraise,anddeemeditavirtue.

    iamignorantofabsolutetruth.butiahereinliesmyhonourandmyreward.

    thereisaspacebetweenmansihatraversedbyhislonging.

    paradiseisthere,behindthatdoor,inthenextroom;butihavelostthekey.

    perhapsihaveonlymislaidit.

    youareblindandiamdeafandduand.

    thesignificanceofmanisnotinwhatheattains,butratherinwhathelongstoattain.

    someofusarelikeinkandsomelikepaper.

    andifitwerenotfortheblacknessofsomeofus,someofuswouldbedumb;

    andifitwerenotforthewhitenessofsomeofus,someofuswouldbeblind.

    givemeanearandiwillgiveyouavoice.

    ourmindisasponge;ourheartisastream.

    isitnotstrangethatgratherthanrunning?

    whenyoulongforblessingsthatyoumaynotname,andwhenyougrieveknowingnotthecause,thenindeedyouaregrowingwithallthingsthatgrow,andrisingtowardyourgreaterself.

    whenoneisdrunkwithavision,hedeemshisfaintexpressionofittheverywine.

    youdrinkwihatyoumaybeintoxicated;andidrinkthatitmaysobermefromthatotherwine.

    whenoitsemptiness;butwhenitishalffulliresentitshalf-fullness.

    therealityoftheotherpersonisnotinwhatherevealstoyou,butinwhathecannotrevealtoyou.

    therefore,ifyouwouldunderstandhim,listennottowhathesaysbutrathertowhathedoesnotsay.

    halfofwhatisayismeaningless;butisayitsothattheotherhalfmayreachyou.

    asenseofhumourisasenseofproportion.

    mylonelinesswasbornwhenmenpraisedmytalkativefaultsandblamedmysilentvirtues.

    whenlifedoesnotfindasingertosingherheartsheproducesaphilosophertospeakhermind.

    atruthistobeknownalways,tobeutteredsometimes.

    therealinusissilent;theacquiredistalkative.

    thevoiceoflifeinheearoflifeinyou;butletustalkthatwemaynotfeellonely.

    whentwowomentalktheysaynothing;whenoneeakssherevealsalloflife.

    frogsmaybellowlouderthanbulls,buttheycannotdragtheploughinthefieldnotturnthewheelofthewinepress,andoftheirskinsyoucannotmakeshoes.

    onlythedualkative.

    ifwintershouldsay,&a,"whowouldbelievewinter?

    everyseedisalonging.

    shouldyoureallyopenyoureyesandsee,youwouldbeholdyourimageinallimages.

    andshouldyouopenyourearsandlisten,youwouldhearyourownvoiceinallvoices.

    ittakestwoofustodiscovertruth:ooutteritandoounderstandit.

    thoughthewaveofwordsisforeveruponus,yetourdepthisforeversilent.

    eislikeawindowpane.weseetruththroughitbutitdividesusfromtruth.

    nowletusplayhideandseek.shouldyouhideinmyheartitwouldnotbedifficulttofindyou.butshouldyouhidebehindyourownshell,thenitwouldbeuselessforanyooseekyou.awomanmayveilherfacewithasmile.

    hownobleisthesadheartwhowouldsingajoyoussongwithjoyoushearts.

    hewhowouldunderstandawoius,orsolvetheheverymanwhowouldwakefromabeautifuldreamtositatabreakfasttable.

    iwouldwalkwithallthosewhowalk.iwouldnotstandstilltowatchtheprocessionpassingby.

    youowemorethangoldtohimwhoservesyou.givehimofyourheartorservehim.

    nay,wehavenotlivedinvain.havetheynotbuilttowersofourbones?

    letusnotbeparticularandsectional.thepoetsmindandthescorpionstailriseingloryfromthesameearth.

    everydragongivesbirthtoast.georgewhoslaysit.

    treesarepoemsthattonthesky.wefelltheopaperthatweptiness.

    shouldyoucaretowrite(andonlythesaintsknowwhyyoushould)youmustneedshaveknowledgeandartandmusic——theknowledgeofthemusicofwords,theartofbeingartless,andthemagicoflovingyourreaders.

    theydiptheirpensinourheartsandthinktheyareinspired.

    shouldatreewriteitsautobiographyitwouldnotbeunlikethehistoryofarace.

    ifiweretochoosebetweenthepowerofwritingapoeasyofapoemunwritten,iwouldchoosetheecstasy.itisbetterpoetry.

    butyouandallmyneighboursagreethatialwayschoosebadly.

    poetryisnotanopinionexpressed.itisasongthatrisesfromableedingwoundorasmilingmouth.

    wordsaretimeless.youshouldutterthemorwritethemwithaknowledgeoftheirtimelessness.

    apoetisadethronedkingsittingamongtheashesofhispalacetryingtofashionanimageoutoftheashes.

    poetryisadealofjoyandpainandwonder,withadashofthedictionary.

    invainshallapoetseekthemotherofthesongsofhisheart.

    onceisaidtoapoet,"weshallnotknowyourworthuntilyoudie."

    andheansweredsaying,"yes,deathisalwaystherevealer.andifindeedyouwouldknowmyworthitisthatihavehanuponhaninmyhand."

    ifyousingofbeautythoughaloneintheheartofthedesertyouwillhaveanaudience.

    poetryiswisdo.

    wisdomispoetrythatsingsinthemind.

    ifwecouldenchantandatthesametimesinginhismind,

    thenintruthhewouldliveintheshadowofgod.

    inspirationwillalwayssing;inspirationwillneverexplain.

    weoftensinglullabiestoourchildrenthatweourselvesmaysleep.

    allourwordsarebutcrumbsthatfalldownfromthefeastofthemind.

    thinkingisalwaysthestuopoetry.

    agreatsingerishewhosingsoursilences.

    howcanyousingifyourmouthbefilledwithfood?

    howshallyourhandberaisedinblessingifitisfilledwithgold?

    theysaythenightingalepierceshisbosomwithathornwhenhesingshislovesong.

    sodoweall.howelseshouldwesing?

    geniusisbutarobinssongatthebeginningofaslowspring.

    eventheotescapephysicalnecessity.

    athanyouorrumentonwhichheplaysisalittleoutoftune.

    thesongthatliessilentintheheartofamothersingsuponthelipsofherchild.

    nolongingremainsunfulfilled.

    ihaveneveragreedwithmyotherselfwholly.thetruthofthematterseemstoliebetweenus.

    yourotherselfisalwayssorryforyou.butyourotherselfgrowsonsorrow;soalliswell.

    thereisnostruggleofsoulandbodysaveinthemindsofthosewhosesoulsareasleepandwhosebodiesareoutoftune.

    whenyoureachtheheartoflifeyoushallfindbeautyinallthings,evenintheeyesthatareblindtobeauty.

    weliveonlytodiscoverbeauty.allelseisaformofwaiting.

    sowaseedandtheearthwillyieldyouaflower.dreamyourdreamtotheskyanditwillbringyouyourbeloved.

    thedevildiedtheverydayyouwereborn.

    nowyoudonothavetogothroughhelltomeetanangel.

    ;veryfewcouldpossessit.

    ifyouwouldpossessyoumustnotclaim.

    whenamanshandtouchesthehandofawohtouchtheheartofeternity.

    loveistheveilbetweenloverandlover.

    everyhecreationofhisiherisnotyetborn.

    tlefaultswillneverenjoytheirgreatvirtues.

    lovethatdoesnotrenewitselfeverydaybeesahabitandinturnaslavery.

    loverseherthaneachother.

    loveanddoubthaveneverbeenonspeakingterms.

    loveisawordoflight,writtenbyahandoflight,uponapageoflight.

    friendshipisalwaysasweetresponsibility,neveranopportunity.

    ifyoudonotunderstandyourfriendunderallconditionsyouwillneverunderstandhim.

    yourmostradiantgarmentisoftheotherpersonsweaving;

    youmostsavourymealisthatwhichyoueatattheotherpersonstable;

    yourherpersonshouse.

    nowtelleyourselffromtheotherperson?

    yourwillneveragreeuntilyouroliveinnu.

    weshallneverunderstandoneanotheruntilwereducethelanguagetosevenwords.

    howshallbebroken?

    onlygreatsorroworgreatjoycanrevealyourtruth.

    ifyouwouldberevealedyouhesun,orcarryyourcross.

    shouldnatureheedwhatwesayofcontentmentnoriverwouldseekthesea,andnowinterwouldturntospring.shouldsheheedallwesayofthrift,howmanyofuswouldbebreathingthisair?

    youseebutyourshadowwhenyouturnyourbacktothesun.

    youarefreebeforethesunoftheday,andfreebeforethestarsofthenight;

    andyouarefreewhenthereisnosunandnomoonandnostar.

    youareevenfreewhenyoucloseyoureyesuponallthereis.

    butyouareaslavetohimwhomyoulovebecauseyoulovehim,

    andaslavetohimwholovesyoubecausehelovesyou.

    weareallbeggarsatthegateoftheteeofusreceiveshisshareofthebountyofthekingwhenheentersthete.

    butwearealljealousofoneanother,whichisanotherwayofbelittlingtheking.

    youcannotconsumebeyondyourappetite.theotherhalfoftheloafbelongstotheotherperson,andthereshouldreeguest.

    ifitwerenotforyourguestsallhouseswouldbegraves.

    saidagraciouswolftoasimplesheep,"willyounothonourourhousewithavisit?"

    andthesheepanswered,"wewouldhavebeenhonouredtovisityourhouseifitwerenotinyourstomach."

    istoppedhresholdandsaid,"nay,wipenotyourfeetasyouenter,butasyougoout."

    generosityisnotingivingeedmorethanyoudo,butitisingivingeedmorethanido.

    youareindeedcharitablewhenyougive,andwhilegiving,turnyourfaceawaysothatyouhereceiver.

    thedifferencebetweentherichestmanandthepoorestisbutadayofhungerandanhourofthirst.

    weoftenborrowfromourtomorrowstopayourdebtstoouryesterdays.

    itooamvisitedbyangelsanddevils,butigetridofthem.

    whenitisanangeliprayanoldprayer,andheisbored;

    whenitisadevilimitanoldsin,andhepassesmeby.

    afterallthisisnotabadprison;butidonotlikethiswallbetweenprisonerscell;

    yetiassureyouthatidonotwishtoreproachthewardernotthebuilderoftheprison.

    thosewhogiveyouaserpentwhenyouaskforafish,mayhavenothingbutserpentstogive.itisthengenerosityontheirpart.

    trickerysueedssoitssuicide.

    youaretrulyaforgiverwhenyouforgivemurdererswhoneverspillblood,thieveswhoneversteal,andliarswhoutternofalsehood.

    heuthisfingeruponthatwhichdividesgoodfrotouchtheveryhemofthegarmentofgod.

    ifyourheartisavolcanohowshallyouexpectflowerstobloominyourhands?